Starting

Tommorow I will be getting my Vita-mix in the mail, and I can hardly wait! I will officially be starting myself on the Green Smootie Challenge. I will be eating, well I should say drinking only green smoothies for the next six months! I need this dramatic kind of change because I am wanting dramatic weight loss! I hope on my weight loss journey that I can find encouragement and be encouraging to others as well. My goal is to lose 150 ponds by Christmas!!! I need to do this for not only myself, but for my kids. They deserve a mom that can play with them and keep up with them, not a mom on the "side lines." I don't want to be the "fat" mom. I don't want my children to be embarassed of me. I want to be the kind of mom that the kids can play with and be proud of. I know this is going to be a long journey, and a hard one at that. I will probably be doing alot of crying, but I know in the end it will be worth it. I am leaning and trusting on God throughout this journey to give me courage and the strength, determination, and preserverence to go and do it. I know that He will be here with me and I know that with Him I can do it! I am so glad that on this challenge for better health, I am also challenging myself to develop a deeper intamacy with my heavenly daddy. I am learning to see myself as a daughter, and its hard when you don't have a good relationship with your earthly daddy. Don't get me wrong I love him and honor him and he is a good man, but we have never been close. I have never understood the whole daddy-daughter relationship, but I am learning. So my goals for the next year are not just weight loss, but building my relationship with my God, and being a better wife and mother to my children. I am going to have to learn to have the right relationship with food, wierd to say, but it's true! It's kind of like I have been hiding the true me in the fat me and I have been afraid to come out! So many things I have to work on, but I have the time. In all of it, I will always give God the Glory! I am nothing without Him, and with Him I am everything! Peace to all, Audra