One of these days....

Ok so I know that I am going to probably catch some flack about this but I had a big delay to my experiment. First of all, I had family come in from out of town and they cooked the whole time they were here and it was good and my will power was not that strong! I also was very anxious about my husband's court hearing and we just got finished with that ordeal, so that is some relief. I also had an emotional setback and got into that "poor me, don't care" mode. We all know that is no good and will not do anything but keep me where I am at. So with all this junk behind me I can now get ready to dive into this experiment again! I really want to do this! I CAN do it, and I'm GOING to do it! It is really sad when your own husband says you have let yourself go and you don't even care! And he was right in a sense. I had convinced myself that things weren't going to change and then took on the attitude that I didn't care what anybody thought of me. Where I am have been emotionally and mentally is not a good place to be. Sometimes you just get so diluted and clouded in your way of thinking, but that is over. No more stinkin thinkin for me. So don't give up on me yet. I really am determined to do this and I will succeed. Pray for me, for strength and power to be able to overcome, tackle, and gain victory over my temptaion. Thank you to all who support me, I love you!