A new day

I am ashamed to say that once again I have not done anything towards my goals. But I am REALLY starting tommorow! I reconnected with an old friend from High School, Fawn and she is a Lifestyle Coach/Specialist and is an amazing person! She loves health and fitness and most important, she loves helping people, and has a great heart. She is going to be my Coach and I am going to be sharing alot with her over this journey. I am encouraged and excited about the new changes that will be happening here in the next couple of weeks. I know it has been a rough start and I keep promising you that I am going to do it, but hey when it's all over and I do it, I am going to look back and say Well at least other people can look and see that they were not the only ones struggling and that no one ever "has it easy." I know it's going to be hard work, but I am willing to work it. I can see myself at 120 pounds and now i am going to work myself to 120 pounds. I said at first my goal was to lose 150 pounds by Christmas but now I am saying 151 pounds by March 26, 2011 and that is the day of the 5k Rumpshaker Colon Cancer Race. I will be in that race in memory and honor of my Granny Elsie, who died in November 2008 of colon cancer. Man I miss her more and more everyday That race will be special to me because it will symbolize two things for me.Number one:that I reached my major goal that I set for myself and two:the legacy that she left behind. Thank you God for always being there and loving me with your relentless love. It is an honor to serve such a BIG and Awesome God! May you be blessed in all I say and do.

One of these days....

Ok so I know that I am going to probably catch some flack about this but I had a big delay to my experiment. First of all, I had family come in from out of town and they cooked the whole time they were here and it was good and my will power was not that strong! I also was very anxious about my husband's court hearing and we just got finished with that ordeal, so that is some relief. I also had an emotional setback and got into that "poor me, don't care" mode. We all know that is no good and will not do anything but keep me where I am at. So with all this junk behind me I can now get ready to dive into this experiment again! I really want to do this! I CAN do it, and I'm GOING to do it! It is really sad when your own husband says you have let yourself go and you don't even care! And he was right in a sense. I had convinced myself that things weren't going to change and then took on the attitude that I didn't care what anybody thought of me. Where I am have been emotionally and mentally is not a good place to be. Sometimes you just get so diluted and clouded in your way of thinking, but that is over. No more stinkin thinkin for me. So don't give up on me yet. I really am determined to do this and I will succeed. Pray for me, for strength and power to be able to overcome, tackle, and gain victory over my temptaion. Thank you to all who support me, I love you!