It's Friday Baby!
Today was an emotional day! I got my feelings hurt today and for a couple minutes thought I was ready to give up, I was upset and just wanted to go eat. But after I vented to the camcorder I calmed down and came back to my senses. This is the first time ever that I didn't chase my emotions down with food! Thank God for the camera and to some wonderful people supporting and backing me. If not for Mel and Fawn and their faith and belief in me, I probably would havbe given up today. It does my soul good to know that there are people who genuinally, really care about me and care about what happens to me. It is thier encouragement that keeps me going. I refuse to give up on myself and I know that now people are counting on me and I can't let them down. So yeah Caden had his meet the teacher today and when the other parents started coming in there I just wanted to hide under one of those tables. There were some moms in their that were pretty and thin and I felt like I didn't even want to look at them and I didn't want to draw attention to myself. Then it dawned on me, maybe thats why my child is so shy, maybe its because if me. Maybe he watches the way I am around people and it has just mimiced my behavior! Oh no! So anyway I also have some decisions to make that are difficult and I just want to get me and my kids to a day when there is peace and love and stillness. I realize now that people in America are addicted to food like alcholics are addicted to alcohol, and druggie is addicted to drugs. It is a real struggle, it an epidemic and it's killing people. When I lay down at night I feel how hard my heart is pumping and working to do it job and it scares me. If you really knew me you would now that I have to do this, because I beleive it's about life and death and its all about quality of life. If I don't do this i would be cheating my children and cheating myself, and cheating all the people God has lined up for me to minister to and help. I also value the relationship I have developed with Fawn and never want to hurt her. So I made it through 5 days! Thank you Jesus! Anyway this is what was on my mind today. So what did I eat and what did I do:
Breakfast:¾ cup of oatmeal made with water (Quaker raw oats)
½ cup of berries
1 tbsp ground flax seeds 80
1 whole egg + 1 egg white
Calories = 360
Snack:Smoothie
1 cup fat free/no sugar greek yogurt (get this at whole foods) 120
1/2 cup frozen berries 40
8 almonds 56
½ cup fat free milk 45
Calories=260
Lunch:Turkey Wrap
Whole Wheat Tortilla- 120 calorie wrap or less
4oz turkey breast lunchmeat (low sodium if can) 120
2 teaspoons mustard 10
1/2 cup spinach 20
Tomato 15
1/4 of an avocado 55
Small apple 50
Calories=400
Snack:1 cup of fat free milk 90
1 piece whole wheat toast 100
½ tbsp peanut butter 50
Calories=240
Dinner:Ground Turkey or Ground Beef Scramble
4 oz lean ground turkey or lean ground beef 120
½ cup peppers sautéed in 1 teaspoon olive oil 70
¾ cup rice 150
1/6 avocado 40
1 small tomato 20
Calories=400
Snack:Larabar
Workout:AM-(35min) 5 min. warm up then 1 on and 1 off/ 1 min. steep incline walk followed by 1 min. recovery walk
PM- 30 min fast walk
Friday, August 6, 2010
Day 4
Hey yall!
I know I blogged yesturday but I left out my meal plan and fitness, so here goes
Breakfast:
1 egg 1 egg white 90
½ cup of spinach 20
½ cup bell peppers 20
½ cup of brown rice 100
1 teaspoon Olive Oil-40
Small apple-50
Calories= 320
Snack:Larabar
Lunch:
Peanut Butter/Banana Sandwich and Salad
2 tbsp peanut butter or 2 tbsp almond butter 200
½ banana 50
1 piece of whole wheat toast 120
1 cup spinach 30
1 small tomato 20
1 tbsp Balsamic Vinegar 15
Calories=430
Snack:¾ Cup Cottage Cheese (Nonfat) 120
½ cup of berries or 1 small peach 50
½ tbsp almond butter or 8 almonds 56
Calories= 226
Dinner:Chicken Stir Fry
1 cup stir fry veggie medley (should have broccoli, water chestnuts, peppers etc) 40
4oz chicken 150
½ cup mushrooms 25
1 teaspoons olive oil 50
¾ cup brown rice or quinoa 150
Calories=415
Snack:2 Boiled Eggs- 160
2 rice cakes-plain or small piece of fruit or mini whole wheat bagel around 70 calories
Calories=230
Workout:AM-on elliptical 45-60 min Easy Pace PM- 45 min. fast walk
I know I blogged yesturday but I left out my meal plan and fitness, so here goes
Breakfast:
1 egg 1 egg white 90
½ cup of spinach 20
½ cup bell peppers 20
½ cup of brown rice 100
1 teaspoon Olive Oil-40
Small apple-50
Calories= 320
Snack:Larabar
Lunch:
Peanut Butter/Banana Sandwich and Salad
2 tbsp peanut butter or 2 tbsp almond butter 200
½ banana 50
1 piece of whole wheat toast 120
1 cup spinach 30
1 small tomato 20
1 tbsp Balsamic Vinegar 15
Calories=430
Snack:¾ Cup Cottage Cheese (Nonfat) 120
½ cup of berries or 1 small peach 50
½ tbsp almond butter or 8 almonds 56
Calories= 226
Dinner:Chicken Stir Fry
1 cup stir fry veggie medley (should have broccoli, water chestnuts, peppers etc) 40
4oz chicken 150
½ cup mushrooms 25
1 teaspoons olive oil 50
¾ cup brown rice or quinoa 150
Calories=415
Snack:2 Boiled Eggs- 160
2 rice cakes-plain or small piece of fruit or mini whole wheat bagel around 70 calories
Calories=230
Workout:AM-on elliptical 45-60 min Easy Pace PM- 45 min. fast walk
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Relentless
The past has a good way of coming back and biting in you in the butt. I have made my fair share of mistakes and bad choices. I did a lot of stupid things and things that I am embarrased of and ashamed of, but I also have done a lot of good. I tried to help others and be a blessing and a help to those in need. I used to say that, "I wish I could go back, and I would have never done that!" Or "why oh why did God allow me to do that stupid, stupid thing." One of the great things about God is that he is a gentleman and He will not force Himself on you. He will not make you have a relationship if you are not ready for one. It is all about free will and choices. He loves you and chooses you, but you have to choose and invite Him in. So therefore God had nothing to do with the things in my past that I terribly regret because they were all me and my choices I made.I know the whole time he was there and trying to tell me don't do that, don't chose that. I believe that when we make mistakes and we hurt that He hurts too! We are his children and no parent wants their child to be hurting. I know that it kills me when my children are hurting. I am so trying to be the "helicopter" mom. I just can't stand the thought of someone hurting any of my children's feelings. In reality I know that I can't control life or everything that happens to them. Getting hurt is apart of life, I just wish that they never go through some of the pain and heartache I have.I want to be the kind of mom that the kids are proud of and they can talk to about anything, without worrying about me freaking out or judging them. I want them to feel like there is nothing they can't tell me and I want them to trust me with thier heart. I am sure there are alot of things I will not approve of but being open and understanding and respectful of them and thier thoughts and feelings will make a big difference. I agree with parents when they say that thier children have go to show them respect. I definately demand respect from my children. But so many times the parents forget the other part of that and that is that children deserve respect as well. They deserve to be heard and they deserve a voice. I want my children to be brilliant and ask questions because that is how they learn. I hate it when parents say "just because I said so" I have said it before but only after I have tried to explain the why to them and they refuse to listen, but I say it like this,"because I am your mom, and I know what is best for you." Kids learn best when things are explained to them. I also really don't talk baby talk to them becuase I wanted them to fully grasp what I am saying. These are just some of life's lessons that I am still trying to figure out. It has challenged me to be different, to not make the same mistakes and to grow and learn from each of the decisions that I made that were wrong. Without mistakes we wouldn't realize God's mercy and his grace. God loves for us is inmeasurable and that kind of relentless love and pursuit of passion that he chases us with is the kind of love we wished we had for each other. Just some random thoughs...I love you all my brothers and sisters in Christ..May God bless you exceeding above abd beyond what you can think of and even imagine today...Peace
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Day 3!
Good Afternoon to everyone!
Man today has been a great day! I barely completed my high intensity trainig this morning, but I did it! Then this morning I had:3/4 cup of wheaties
½ cup of berries
1 cup of fat free milk
1 egg
Calories= 320
Wheaties(the breakfast of champions) at least that is what the box says anyway. Heck ya I am a soon to be champion! Anyway so we packed some carrots grapes and watermelon and me and the kids went with my mom to her friends house to swim! It was so nice while we were there my mom stayed at the shallow end of the pool with the kids while I exercised in the deep end. I swam some laps, treaded water, did pullups from under the diving board. So I got an extra mini-workout and it felt really good. It brings back so many memories of growing up and how much I loved the summer. I was always in a pool and I even used to be on Prattville's Stars and Stripes swim team. So I played with the kids and showed them that their momma has still got some skills and I jumped off the diving board a couple of times. Instead of being upset and insecure about my weight today, I had the attitude that you know what next summer I will be half this size and this momma is gonna kill it in a swimming suit! I was in the shallow end of the pool holding my little girl and got so emotional watching her enjoying the water as the sun was beaming of her beautiful golden hair and her sunglistening skin, I was just thinking how thankful I am. That I had that moment and that I could share it with her. I love holding her and talking to her and watching her every little move she is so amazing and knows how to work her momma! She is only two years old but she knows what she wants and I love that. I spent some time with Micah and love the wat he enjoys life and how he embraces every single minute of everything he does. He is constantly reminding me to find the good in everything and I love that he is a snuggler. He is going to be a romantic-I know it and I love that about him! Then I spent some time with Caden, my first born, and that boy makes me melt, that boy is the shy-est? little thing. I honestly have never seen a child so shy, well let me tell you he does not get that from me! I have always been loud and outgoing. I am working on his self confidence and his self esteem. If you pay attention he is the childd who sits back and observes everyone else is doing and he thinks about it. I love that about him. I can see how God grouped my kids together and made them different, so that together they all balance out. They all have something the other needs. I beleive that Caden will be the "responsible" big brother who is constantly trying to keep his brother out of trouble and assisting him in things, and I know the two of them will do a good job of protecting their little sister, but if she turns out anything like the way she is now, she might not need no help-she could just manage her own! I love taking the time to devote to all three of them. I try and make sure that they get the equal amout of one-on-one time with me. I want my children to know that I love them all the same. I appreciate each one for their own personality and character traits. I do not favor one more than the other. I love the fact that I get to stay at home with them and share these precious moments with them. I feel so blessed to do that. Its moments like today that make me realize that my financial situation and my weight issues are not something that will last forever. Just like this time with my children will not last forever. I love how God is showing me to enjoy the uniqueness of everyone. I think it is amazing that He loves my kids more than I do! I am sad to see that summer is almost over. I plan to spend the next couple of days doing activities with the kids before school starts Monday! There is a song, I can't remember who sings it but it says,"I can see the finger prints of God when I look at you," that is what I think of when I look at them. I try not to take for granted how special it is to sing with them and read with them. I love watching their little hands fold as we start to pray, looking at those precious little fingers and I want to kiss every little one. Listening to my kids pray and talk about Jesus makes me so proud and my heart swell with pride. So my message today to everyone is enjoy the little things and cherish the moments that you have now for they will soon turn into our memories! I would apologize for being so sappy, but I'm not, becuause I love it and I meant every single word.
for snack I had a cherry larabar and 3 baby carrots and for lunch
I had Peanut Butter/Banana Sandwich and Salad
2 tbsp peanut butter or 2 tbsp almond butter 200
½ banana 50
1 piece of whole wheat toast 120
1 cup spinach 30
1 small tomato 20
1 tbsp Balsamic Vinegar 15
Calories=430
and for snack number 2:I had ¾ cup Non Fat Cottage Cheese 120
½ cup pineapple (fresh not canned) 40
8 almonds 56
Calories=216
Oh and let's see for dinner I am in the mood for:Spaghetti
¾ cup whole wheat noodles (cooked) 130
½ cup spaghetti sauce 40
4 oz leanest ground beef or 4oz lean ground turkey or 4oz chicken 150
1 cup green beans (no butter) 44
1 tsp Olive Oil 40
Calories=404
And for my last snack of the day I choose:Smoothie
1 cup fat free/no sugar greek yogurt (get this at whole foods) 120
1/2 cup frozen berries 40
8 almonds 56
½ cup fat free milk 45
Calories=260
Tonight I will be hitting up the pavement again. Thank you for all who are praying for me you don't know how much that means to me. I might be slowly changing but don't take lightly your impact-you are going to reap eternal blessings for yoor prayers my friends. For what you make happen for others God will make happen for you.
PEACE yall! Audra
Man today has been a great day! I barely completed my high intensity trainig this morning, but I did it! Then this morning I had:3/4 cup of wheaties
½ cup of berries
1 cup of fat free milk
1 egg
Calories= 320
Wheaties(the breakfast of champions) at least that is what the box says anyway. Heck ya I am a soon to be champion! Anyway so we packed some carrots grapes and watermelon and me and the kids went with my mom to her friends house to swim! It was so nice while we were there my mom stayed at the shallow end of the pool with the kids while I exercised in the deep end. I swam some laps, treaded water, did pullups from under the diving board. So I got an extra mini-workout and it felt really good. It brings back so many memories of growing up and how much I loved the summer. I was always in a pool and I even used to be on Prattville's Stars and Stripes swim team. So I played with the kids and showed them that their momma has still got some skills and I jumped off the diving board a couple of times. Instead of being upset and insecure about my weight today, I had the attitude that you know what next summer I will be half this size and this momma is gonna kill it in a swimming suit! I was in the shallow end of the pool holding my little girl and got so emotional watching her enjoying the water as the sun was beaming of her beautiful golden hair and her sunglistening skin, I was just thinking how thankful I am. That I had that moment and that I could share it with her. I love holding her and talking to her and watching her every little move she is so amazing and knows how to work her momma! She is only two years old but she knows what she wants and I love that. I spent some time with Micah and love the wat he enjoys life and how he embraces every single minute of everything he does. He is constantly reminding me to find the good in everything and I love that he is a snuggler. He is going to be a romantic-I know it and I love that about him! Then I spent some time with Caden, my first born, and that boy makes me melt, that boy is the shy-est? little thing. I honestly have never seen a child so shy, well let me tell you he does not get that from me! I have always been loud and outgoing. I am working on his self confidence and his self esteem. If you pay attention he is the childd who sits back and observes everyone else is doing and he thinks about it. I love that about him. I can see how God grouped my kids together and made them different, so that together they all balance out. They all have something the other needs. I beleive that Caden will be the "responsible" big brother who is constantly trying to keep his brother out of trouble and assisting him in things, and I know the two of them will do a good job of protecting their little sister, but if she turns out anything like the way she is now, she might not need no help-she could just manage her own! I love taking the time to devote to all three of them. I try and make sure that they get the equal amout of one-on-one time with me. I want my children to know that I love them all the same. I appreciate each one for their own personality and character traits. I do not favor one more than the other. I love the fact that I get to stay at home with them and share these precious moments with them. I feel so blessed to do that. Its moments like today that make me realize that my financial situation and my weight issues are not something that will last forever. Just like this time with my children will not last forever. I love how God is showing me to enjoy the uniqueness of everyone. I think it is amazing that He loves my kids more than I do! I am sad to see that summer is almost over. I plan to spend the next couple of days doing activities with the kids before school starts Monday! There is a song, I can't remember who sings it but it says,"I can see the finger prints of God when I look at you," that is what I think of when I look at them. I try not to take for granted how special it is to sing with them and read with them. I love watching their little hands fold as we start to pray, looking at those precious little fingers and I want to kiss every little one. Listening to my kids pray and talk about Jesus makes me so proud and my heart swell with pride. So my message today to everyone is enjoy the little things and cherish the moments that you have now for they will soon turn into our memories! I would apologize for being so sappy, but I'm not, becuause I love it and I meant every single word.
for snack I had a cherry larabar and 3 baby carrots and for lunch
I had Peanut Butter/Banana Sandwich and Salad
2 tbsp peanut butter or 2 tbsp almond butter 200
½ banana 50
1 piece of whole wheat toast 120
1 cup spinach 30
1 small tomato 20
1 tbsp Balsamic Vinegar 15
Calories=430
and for snack number 2:I had ¾ cup Non Fat Cottage Cheese 120
½ cup pineapple (fresh not canned) 40
8 almonds 56
Calories=216
Oh and let's see for dinner I am in the mood for:Spaghetti
¾ cup whole wheat noodles (cooked) 130
½ cup spaghetti sauce 40
4 oz leanest ground beef or 4oz lean ground turkey or 4oz chicken 150
1 cup green beans (no butter) 44
1 tsp Olive Oil 40
Calories=404
And for my last snack of the day I choose:Smoothie
1 cup fat free/no sugar greek yogurt (get this at whole foods) 120
1/2 cup frozen berries 40
8 almonds 56
½ cup fat free milk 45
Calories=260
Tonight I will be hitting up the pavement again. Thank you for all who are praying for me you don't know how much that means to me. I might be slowly changing but don't take lightly your impact-you are going to reap eternal blessings for yoor prayers my friends. For what you make happen for others God will make happen for you.
PEACE yall! Audra
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Day 2!
Hey yall,
I finished out yesturday as planned and had a overall great day.
It is day 2 and today has been a doozie so far. Ok so I woke up and had my water. and had my quiet time. Then I had my breakfast:
1 piece whole wheat toast
1 tbsp peanut butter (not heaping spoonful, exact tablespoon)
3/4 cup of strawberries
3 egg whites
Calories= 315
Then I played with Hannah for a bit and then went for a 30 minute fast walk, which was supposed to be this p.m. workout but Hannah woke up and that's what I got to do. So tonight I am doing what was supposed to be my am workout which is AM-(35min) 5 min. warm up then 1 on and 1 off/ 1 min. steep incline walk followed by 1 min. recovery walk.
So while I was cleaning up and doing laundry those cravings came on again and I started to think Maybe I can't do it, and why do these people believe in me? I just had to pray and tell God how I was feeling and ask for him to give me peace strength to fight temptation. I pushed through it and kept myself busy. For snack I had ¾ Cup Cottage Cheese (Nonfat) 120
½ cup of berries or 1 small peach 50
½ tbsp almond butter or 8 almonds 56
Calories= 226
I ran some errunds with the kids and stopped by my moms, made my trip to the Water Store, and came back home. I had to get lunch ready for everybody and I had:
Turkey Wrap
Whole Wheat Tortilla- 120 calorie wrap or less
4oz turkey breast lunchmeat (low sodium if can) 120
2 teaspoons mustard 10
1/2 cup spinach 20
Tomato 15
1/4 of an avocado 55
Small apple 50
Calories=400
It is not time for my afternoon snack yet but I am sure it will be a LaraBar
I am doing okay. I just keeping pushing on and looking forward to the future I know this journey is starting by taking one day at a time and right now its one minute at a time. There are so many people counting on me and I can not let them down! I am in the mood to have the Grilled Chicken Salad
1 cup spinach 30
1 small tomato 20
¾ cup of rice or black beans 150
4 oz grilled chicken 150
1 teaspoon olive oil 50
1 tbsp Balsamic vinegar 30
Calories=430
and for my last snack of the day I will have:Smoothie
½ banana 60
1 cup fat free milk 90
1 tbsp peanut butter 100
Calories=250
I was thinking earlier that sometimes I just don't get why it is so hard to eat right and make the right choices. But that's exactly it-it's all about the choices. I have found myself being very vulnerable and open and sharing things that are private that I would have never thought I would. It is for the good of others. To give others a voice that wont speak up. To encourage others to take a stand to make a difference in their life! I want to help anybody and everybody I can but first I am getting the help I need so I can be an encouragement to others. If you are reading this and you are wanting to help someone you know who needs to lose weight and get in shape please remember not to criticize, but instead be positive and lift that person up. One thing that really hurt me was when someone had said, "well, Audra used to be a cute girl and all, well you know before she gained her weight." That scarred me, I mean it really hurt. I have forgiven the person and it doesnt matter who said bc I wouldn't tell you anyway. I do not think they meant it in a bad way but it cut me pretty deep. "They" say to forgive and forget but I don't think I can forget that, but I will use it for the good. I will use that expereince as a reminder to be careful with my words and the things I say so that I do not hurt people that way. Being overweight does not change who the person is, it just changes the outside appearance. As critical and blindsighted I have been about my own appearance I don't see others the way I see myself. I don't look at big people like me or even people bigger than me and think things about their weight or see them the way I see myself. For some reason I see them for who they are, the REAL them. If you have ever judged someone for being overweight, it's ok you can change the way you think now. Just be careful that in any situation you dont' judge because you don't know where people are coming from or what they have been through, you just dont know, you might be entertaining angels unaware. Just some thoughts....Love and Peace to everyone.
I finished out yesturday as planned and had a overall great day.
It is day 2 and today has been a doozie so far. Ok so I woke up and had my water. and had my quiet time. Then I had my breakfast:
1 piece whole wheat toast
1 tbsp peanut butter (not heaping spoonful, exact tablespoon)
3/4 cup of strawberries
3 egg whites
Calories= 315
Then I played with Hannah for a bit and then went for a 30 minute fast walk, which was supposed to be this p.m. workout but Hannah woke up and that's what I got to do. So tonight I am doing what was supposed to be my am workout which is AM-(35min) 5 min. warm up then 1 on and 1 off/ 1 min. steep incline walk followed by 1 min. recovery walk.
So while I was cleaning up and doing laundry those cravings came on again and I started to think Maybe I can't do it, and why do these people believe in me? I just had to pray and tell God how I was feeling and ask for him to give me peace strength to fight temptation. I pushed through it and kept myself busy. For snack I had ¾ Cup Cottage Cheese (Nonfat) 120
½ cup of berries or 1 small peach 50
½ tbsp almond butter or 8 almonds 56
Calories= 226
I ran some errunds with the kids and stopped by my moms, made my trip to the Water Store, and came back home. I had to get lunch ready for everybody and I had:
Turkey Wrap
Whole Wheat Tortilla- 120 calorie wrap or less
4oz turkey breast lunchmeat (low sodium if can) 120
2 teaspoons mustard 10
1/2 cup spinach 20
Tomato 15
1/4 of an avocado 55
Small apple 50
Calories=400
It is not time for my afternoon snack yet but I am sure it will be a LaraBar
I am doing okay. I just keeping pushing on and looking forward to the future I know this journey is starting by taking one day at a time and right now its one minute at a time. There are so many people counting on me and I can not let them down! I am in the mood to have the Grilled Chicken Salad
1 cup spinach 30
1 small tomato 20
¾ cup of rice or black beans 150
4 oz grilled chicken 150
1 teaspoon olive oil 50
1 tbsp Balsamic vinegar 30
Calories=430
and for my last snack of the day I will have:Smoothie
½ banana 60
1 cup fat free milk 90
1 tbsp peanut butter 100
Calories=250
I was thinking earlier that sometimes I just don't get why it is so hard to eat right and make the right choices. But that's exactly it-it's all about the choices. I have found myself being very vulnerable and open and sharing things that are private that I would have never thought I would. It is for the good of others. To give others a voice that wont speak up. To encourage others to take a stand to make a difference in their life! I want to help anybody and everybody I can but first I am getting the help I need so I can be an encouragement to others. If you are reading this and you are wanting to help someone you know who needs to lose weight and get in shape please remember not to criticize, but instead be positive and lift that person up. One thing that really hurt me was when someone had said, "well, Audra used to be a cute girl and all, well you know before she gained her weight." That scarred me, I mean it really hurt. I have forgiven the person and it doesnt matter who said bc I wouldn't tell you anyway. I do not think they meant it in a bad way but it cut me pretty deep. "They" say to forgive and forget but I don't think I can forget that, but I will use it for the good. I will use that expereince as a reminder to be careful with my words and the things I say so that I do not hurt people that way. Being overweight does not change who the person is, it just changes the outside appearance. As critical and blindsighted I have been about my own appearance I don't see others the way I see myself. I don't look at big people like me or even people bigger than me and think things about their weight or see them the way I see myself. For some reason I see them for who they are, the REAL them. If you have ever judged someone for being overweight, it's ok you can change the way you think now. Just be careful that in any situation you dont' judge because you don't know where people are coming from or what they have been through, you just dont know, you might be entertaining angels unaware. Just some thoughts....Love and Peace to everyone.
Monday, August 2, 2010
Day 1
Ok guys,
So today is day 1. I woke up this morning with a fresh excitement and ready to go! I started the morning with drinking 2 cups of water with some fresh squeezed lemon. Then I ate my breakfast this morning which was:
¾ cup of oatmeal made with purified water (Quaker raw oats)
½ cup of blueberries
1 tbsp ground flax seeds
1 whole egg + 1 egg white
Calories = 360
Then I had some water
I did my morning workout that consisted of AM-(32 min)start with 5 min.warmup then 5 min. fast walk then 3 min. incline walk (adjust speed if needed)
Then this afternoon I am going walking for 45 minutes!
That workout was tough. I mean the incline was like wow! But it was the good kind of wow. I could tell I it was working bc I could feel the burn. I kind of felt uncomfortable when the room starting filling up with men-I kind of felt some anxiety coming on...like they were judging me or wandering what I was doing there. Then I just imagined Fawn being there with me and telling me this was not about them, that this was not all about me either, it's for God's glory and His will and the greater good for the people I meant to inspire. So I bit my lip and realized that I needed to stop being so insecure. More than likely they were not looking at me in that way and I was just being paranoid, and even if they were, that's they're problem. So once I got passed that I was okay. I got done and it felt good that I did it. I had a Larabar for a snack and for Lunch I had:
my Grilled Chicken Salad option
1 cup spinach 30
1 small tomato 20
¾ cup of rice or black beans 150
4 oz grilled chicken 150
1 teaspoon olive oil 50
1 tbsp Balsamic vinegar 30
Calories=430
and then for snack right now I am having:Medium Apple 75
20 almonds 140
Calories= 215
So tonight I think I am going to try:Burger (no bun) with Sweet Pot Fries
4 oz lean ground turkey patty or lean ground beef patty 150
Mustard 10
Spinach 10
Small tomato 20
5 oz sweet potato or 5 oz sweet potato fries (bake with ½ teaspoon olive oil drizzled on and peeled) 170
1 cup green beans 50
Calories=410
And so far so good, I have noticed I am not so tired. I have not noticed a huge difference in the energy yet, but a difference none the less. I have had major cravings today. I thought about Mexico Tipico today and how I would love a chocolate donut, but I have kept strong and I keep telling myself it will be worth it. I wish I had Fawn here with me, but I know she is praying for me, thinking of me, and she is encouraging me. Most important to me is that she Believes in me, and that feeling is Amazing! Accountability is so important! I know that with the right team and with encouragement I will accomplish one small goal at a time. I am going to finish my snack and check on my little angels. Bye for now. Peace to you! Audra
So today is day 1. I woke up this morning with a fresh excitement and ready to go! I started the morning with drinking 2 cups of water with some fresh squeezed lemon. Then I ate my breakfast this morning which was:
¾ cup of oatmeal made with purified water (Quaker raw oats)
½ cup of blueberries
1 tbsp ground flax seeds
1 whole egg + 1 egg white
Calories = 360
Then I had some water
I did my morning workout that consisted of AM-(32 min)start with 5 min.warmup then 5 min. fast walk then 3 min. incline walk (adjust speed if needed)
Then this afternoon I am going walking for 45 minutes!
That workout was tough. I mean the incline was like wow! But it was the good kind of wow. I could tell I it was working bc I could feel the burn. I kind of felt uncomfortable when the room starting filling up with men-I kind of felt some anxiety coming on...like they were judging me or wandering what I was doing there. Then I just imagined Fawn being there with me and telling me this was not about them, that this was not all about me either, it's for God's glory and His will and the greater good for the people I meant to inspire. So I bit my lip and realized that I needed to stop being so insecure. More than likely they were not looking at me in that way and I was just being paranoid, and even if they were, that's they're problem. So once I got passed that I was okay. I got done and it felt good that I did it. I had a Larabar for a snack and for Lunch I had:
my Grilled Chicken Salad option
1 cup spinach 30
1 small tomato 20
¾ cup of rice or black beans 150
4 oz grilled chicken 150
1 teaspoon olive oil 50
1 tbsp Balsamic vinegar 30
Calories=430
and then for snack right now I am having:Medium Apple 75
20 almonds 140
Calories= 215
So tonight I think I am going to try:Burger (no bun) with Sweet Pot Fries
4 oz lean ground turkey patty or lean ground beef patty 150
Mustard 10
Spinach 10
Small tomato 20
5 oz sweet potato or 5 oz sweet potato fries (bake with ½ teaspoon olive oil drizzled on and peeled) 170
1 cup green beans 50
Calories=410
And so far so good, I have noticed I am not so tired. I have not noticed a huge difference in the energy yet, but a difference none the less. I have had major cravings today. I thought about Mexico Tipico today and how I would love a chocolate donut, but I have kept strong and I keep telling myself it will be worth it. I wish I had Fawn here with me, but I know she is praying for me, thinking of me, and she is encouraging me. Most important to me is that she Believes in me, and that feeling is Amazing! Accountability is so important! I know that with the right team and with encouragement I will accomplish one small goal at a time. I am going to finish my snack and check on my little angels. Bye for now. Peace to you! Audra
Sunday, August 1, 2010
My New Lifestyle Change
OK, yall. After talking to Fawn we have come to the realization that doing the green snoothie experiment is not the best option for me right now. Although I love green smoothies and still continue to have some, just in a monified amount. Fawn has come up with a complete meal plan made specifically for me, and also made a fitness plan. While losing 151 pounds by March would be a dream come true, I am reminded that in order to keep me motivated and encouraged we are setting a more realistic goal and give it a whole year! The point is to not focus of the numbers but focus on getting healthy and focusing in the journey. So I am commited to that. She is teaching and educating me on nutrition and fitness and working on the psycological and spiritual aspects as well as the physical. Like I mnetioned before, for me this is a Life Changing Experience. This is so important to me;can't help but think of my beautiful grandmother standing in heaven cheering me on. I can see her talking with God and saying,"that's my baby!" I miss her so much. She was not just my granny, but my friend. I thank God for everyday and everyday is a gift and a blessing. I look at my husband and the beautiful children that he has given me and I am so overtaken with joy and awe! I am trying my best to put those doubts out of my mind. The thoughts that say, you can't do it, and it's too hard, and maybe this is the way it's supposed to be. I have to renew my mind with the Word and meditate on those things. These are the Bible Verses that I am going to be focusing on for right now. I pray that this is encouraging to you and right now as I type this, I pray that those of you who are reading this, will be supernaturally blessed in Jesus name! I hope that you continue on with me. Peace to you and yours. Luke 1:37 (Amplified Bible)For with God nothing is ever impossible and no word from God shall be without power or impossible of fullfillment!
Matthew 19:26 (Amplified Bible)
26But Jesus looked at them and said, With men this is impossible, but all things are possible with God
Isaiah 55:11 (Amplified Bible)
11So shall My word be that goes forth out of My mouth: it shall not return to Me void [without producing any effect, useless], but it shall accomplish that which I please and purpose, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.
Mark 11:24 (Amplified Bible)
24For this reason I am telling you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe (trust and be confident) that it is granted to you, and you will [get it].
Matthew 19:26 (Amplified Bible)
26But Jesus looked at them and said, With men this is impossible, but all things are possible with God
Isaiah 55:11 (Amplified Bible)
11So shall My word be that goes forth out of My mouth: it shall not return to Me void [without producing any effect, useless], but it shall accomplish that which I please and purpose, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.
Mark 11:24 (Amplified Bible)
24For this reason I am telling you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe (trust and be confident) that it is granted to you, and you will [get it].
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